Having made the decision to pursue embryo adoption, I made an appointment at the ICRM for a water ultrasound. This is an ultrasound that includes filling the uterus with water in order to get a clear picture of its lining and shape. This determines if there are any fibroids, cysts, or other negative findings, which would inhibit the ability to carry a pregnancy.
We both realized that this test is one of the make-it-or-break-it moments in our quest for a baby. If I am not able to carry a pregnancy for one reason or another, then embryo adoption is not a possibility. Then we would be back at square one. Which, for us, is nowhere.
Because I am in neck-deep in teaching school, the realities of this test were very much a worry, but not one that was consuming large portions of my time during the day. I have 180 students to do that for me. Mostly, I really tried not to get my hopes up. However, the weekend before my appointment was a different story. No school, no students, no papers to grade.
Just the test.
On a Monday.
Nerves, nerves, nerves. Not for him, of course. But, for me, definitely nerves. Questions, what ifs, and preparing for the worst. This is how I deal with stress.
Healthy, I know.
I had to take the day off from work in order to go and my mother-in-law accompanied me to the appointment, which was very nice. We spent far longer in the waiting room than we did during the actual procedure. The ultrasound was mildly uncomfortable and Dr. Slater very matter-of-fact. She quickly and efficiently did her scans and marked her areas. Upon review of the information, she said everything looks great and we can proceed whenever we find embryos that we want!
On this day there was no bad news, no tears, and no more nerves.
We had celebratory pumpkin cake and shared the news of a happy uterus. Thank the Lord!
Currently, we are on the waiting list in the Embryo Donation program and we are looking at profiles. There will be other tests involved and, as with any pregnancy, there are risks, questions, and what ifs. Those are things we will tackle later, if we are able to get pregnant. For now, we wait. We will not make a move toward transfer until we are certain about our jobs for next year.
However, we have this good news and the glow of new possibility brightens our days.
