Failed Adoption

In very early January, we heard about a baby that might need a home. Instantly my hopes ballooned. Brian said it was the first time he had really seen me smile in months. He was afraid for me. I tried, and failed miserably, to reign in my growing sense of possibility. My mistake. To make a very painful experience a short story, there was never really much of a chance that this family would give their baby to us. But I was ready! Ready to jump on a plane and change our lives forever. When they gave the baby to someone else, I was crushed.

It is nobody’s fault and we hold no grudge. Everyone needs to do what is right for their family. However, it was a learning experience in both good and bad ways. I need to guard my heart. Nonetheless, I also realized that someone out there might one day give us a baby. It wasn’t this one. But our baby is out there.  Right?