A Change is Coming

Currently we are pursuing changes in many areas. We are looking at buying a new house with some property. We have no idea if this will go through, but we are hoping! We have emails in to several places about private adoptions. Honestly, this is where I feel most powerless. I have no idea what to do next.

And, in bigger news, we have a hold on some embryos with the ICRM. We found a profile several months ago that we were interested in, but we needed to clarify some medical questions before feeling comfortable with the selection. After talking with a dear friend and medical professional, as well as with a genetic counselor, and our fertility doctor, our fears were assuaged. Which means that there is no reason to hold off. We found some embryos!

There are several more pre-transfer cycle tests that need to be done on me before we can start outlining an embryo transfer schedule. We have to make a couple of trips to Boise for a psychologist’s evaluation as well as some blood tests.  But, things are happening.  

Brian remarked on how much better he feels just being able to proceed with something. I agree, but I am still worried. There is a huge margin for failure here. I find myself hoping and it scares me. I am ready, but what if it doesn’t work?